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Saturday, December 18, 2010

Is it Christmas Yet!?

a.k.a. can I "legally cheat" on my diet yet? ;-)

I can tell I'm soooooo ready for a break from dieting right now, because I am barely hanging on by a thread all week and then falling on the weekends because I cannot wait to be able to eat some cheese, some ham, whatever!

I am anxious to just take a little break from the counting calories, worrying about every little thing that goes in my mouth, etc.

The problem is, I don't want to sabotage myself and gain back too much weight. I totally fell off the wagon last weekend, and now today we just had Culver's for lunch. And this week, I don't even have being snowed in by 17" of snow to blame...

I did weigh in this morning and my final tally for the week was 4 lbs, bringing me to a total of 54 lbs in my first 16 weeks.

Here's my concern: I'm way ahead of schedule (they told me today that I only needed to lose .9 lbs/week from here on out to finish before I'm out of weight loss weeks) and I was hoping to ring in the new year down 50 lbs, which I hit last week. Why is that a concern? Because I'm losing determination too early!

Tomorrow night I am taking my dad to the Vikings 50th Season Celebration and I was planning on eating whatever they served there. Friday is Christmas and we're making a traditional and yummy meal. The week after I have breakfast at Key's with my department at work for our Christmas celebration AND our small group is having a little party that week too. What does all this mean besides yummy?

It means that I have to be careful eating pizza and Culver's and all that just because!

So in the end, yes, I clearly need a little break. I am so beyond thrilled with my results so far, but it's really getting to me psychologically. Obviously, 4 months of strict deprivation is taking it's toll on my brain! Ha!

One thing that I have going for me is SlimGenics, though. Seriously. If I were still doing Weight Watchers, I would have stayed off my diet after last weekend until the end of the year. I would have probably gained back 15 lbs before the end of the month. But the support and accountability of knowing that I have to get on a scale in just a couple days and show the center what I've eaten (and step on the scale 3 times a week so I can't fib!) helps keep me focused on getting back on plan after going off for a meal, etc.

I just have to hang in there a little while longer... only a week or so until I can relax for a few days and stop worrying about it and feeling guilty when I do give in. Then I will have that "New Year's Resolve" to hit it hard again after the first of the year and finish the second half of my journey.

I just pray to the good Lord that I manage to maintain the 50 lbs of weight loss by then, because there is nothing worse than having to lose the same weight TWICE and prolonging the diet phase!


Aunt Killy said...

Ang I feel for you. I know how hard it is to maintain or lose during the holidays. I just want you to promise that you won't beat yourself up if you gain a little. Why? Because you have done so darn good and you should be very happy about that as I know you are. You keep doing what you are doing and all your angels will be looking out for you. Hang in there girl and have a great time with dad at the Vikings. love you

Angie said...

Thank you! I can't believe just how much I'm struggling all of a sudden. I mean, it's not like it was ever EASY, but this is just so much harder.

I can't wait until January, because I bet I'm super motivated again!

Thanks for you support and love - it definitely helps! :-)